F*^king like Rabbits

After losing myself to the MP from Ohio I realized how awesome it is to be gay! There is absolutely no way a woman can make a man feel better than another man can in bed…The MP & I have redefined the saying “fucking like rabbits”. The number of times we’ve fu*ked is going to need more than two hands pretty soon! It’s exciting having a gorgeous man only a few doors down, who, with just a simple call, will come over and indulge all my sexual fantasies. He came over our 2nd night in his woodland cammies and we did a little role play. I’m a little embarrassed to say talk about it, but he “arrested” me, handcuffed me, made me get on my knees and talked to me real dirty while I had my fun with his *&$#. It’s so exhilarating being on my knees with him naked standing in front of me. I always fantasized about times like this when I would watch porn, but you never think you’ll get a man that looks this perfect. 

The only problem with our new “relationship” is that he’s a few ranks higher than I am and we can exactly be seen hanging out in public (at least not on any military base or around other Marines). We are planning a trip to Yosemite & San Francisco in the next couple weeks for a weekend. It’ll be nice to get away and spend some time together in the open and not have to hide behind closed doors. I should mention we dont just have sex but actually talk!! 😉 We are really getting to know each other. He’s a very nurturing guy and has been out to his friends/family for years now so it’s nice to be able to talk to someone who knows what im going through/feeling. There’s a calming effect when he’s around me and it feels like everything is going to be ok. It’s times like these when you realize how much Don’t Ask, Don’t Tell is unfair. The times when you’d like to not have to hide your feelings for someone. 

I finished a painting I’ve been working on. You might think it’s corny, but I really like it. I guess deep down I hope you guys like it but of course I’m a little self conscious and worry no one will. I will show you all tomorrow….

 

A Virgin No More…

I met a Marine tonight in Hillcrest (San Diego’s Gay area). I was at the bookstore reading a magazine when he came up to me and started asking me a bunch of questions about my job. He was using military lingo and obviously knew what he was talking about. Sure enough he was a Marine, living in the same barracks building as I. What are the odds? He is a 26 year old MP (military police). Very cute, from Ohio. We talked for quite some time, and eventually made our way to the “porn” store. The whole time we were looking around at the movies I wanted to just ask him to come back to my room so we can “have some fun”. Thank God I didn’t even have to ask. He grabbed a condom off the shelf, looked at me and said “You wanna?”. Didn’t have to ask me twice. As you all know, I was a “gay virgin” until tonight, and I had always considered saving it for an important guy. But I figured what the hell, an NSA hook up with a hot ass Marine is a *perfect* way to lose my virginity. We bought the condoms, lube, and some poppers and drove back to my place. I was hard as a rock the entire ride. I kept staring at his gorgeous legs, dreaming of what was to come! 

It crossed my mind for a second if what we were about to do was risky (getting caught), but the excitement was too much to handle. I turned on the tv so there was background noise and we both sat down on my bed. There was a few seconds of awkward silence, as we waited for each other to make the first move. He finally just grabbed me and shoved his tongue in my mouth. We made out for what seemed forever before his hands slipped into my shorts. I’ve never felt anything better. We undressed each other, turned off the lights, and got in the 69 position. We didn’t leave my bed for at least a few hours. We used 5 condoms and both took turns on top. He has a very large Eagle Globe & Anchor tattoo on his back that turned me on even more looking at it as I F*&ked him. I must say though, I think I prefer being on the bottom!!! He was at least 7.5 (smooth white cut). I’ll spare you the rest of the scintillating details, but I can say this was the best night of my life. It was amazing for sure!! 

The fact that he lives only a few doors down from me is the shocking part. Who would’ve thought. There are gay Marines everywhere! Of course we made plans for several more nights to follow. 😉 and of course, I will keep you updated on how it goes. 

Fake Overdose?

It seemed like things had started to calm down for my buddy who was recently discovered (see yesterday’s post). This morning I went to his barracks room to drag him out of bed and make sure he made it to work. I knocked on his door a few times before walking in unannounced. I found him lying on his bed naked and two bottles of opened pills spilled all over his night-stand. He appeared to be more drunk than drugged and smelt like straight up liquor. It was a horrible sight and for a split second I thought he could be dead. I immediately called the MPs/Paramedics and waited with him till they came. 

He slipped in and out of consciousness and talked and said a few short things to me. I know he was really down because the last thing he wanted was to get kicked out of the Corps. He always talked about being a “lifer” (someone who stays in the military till retirement) but that was all impossible now. Was today’s horrific scene all because someone found out he was gay?! Or is there an underlying problem with this guy that needs to be addressed?! I dont know him well enough to know his past before he joined the Marines, but he always seemed relatively stable and free of drama. It’s just a sad situation…

After the paramedics took him away I noticed the two bottles of pills looked brand new and almost full. I wonder if he got drunk to make it look as though he was drugged and was faking an overdose?! He’s been taken to Balboa Hospital and is in the psych ward (apparently). My ENTIRE day after the drama of the morning was spent answering questions and retelling my account of what I saw…I guess I just hope he’s alright. 

Beyond that, I’ve really been meaning to head up to Hillcrest the last few days. I need my gay fix for the week!! I like meeting new people randomly on the streets or in coffee shops. Gays seem to be friendlier than the usual strangers so I love perusing Hillcrest for possible new friends/lovers! 😉 The most pressing issue is LUBE. I ran out last night and need more. I really need a boyfriend….He’ll do…

I’ve been getting alot of flak lately from my female friends for finding this guy attractive. His name is Ernests Gulbis, a Latvian pro tennis player. He was recently in the French Open Quarterfinals (where he sadly lost). He’s only 19 and a newcomer to the “big stage” of tennis. I’ve never seen him before this week but instantly fell in love. 

The one on the right *the young one*. He’s cute right?! Someone please comment with either a yes or no. I need to know I’m not alone… 🙂 

Hit Close to Home

A Marine I’ve been kind of close to since I’ve lived in San Diego may be getting discharged from the Corps for being “Gay”. Turns out someone found a bunch of magazines and porn in his barracks room and INSTANTLY told his Gunny (Superior). He called me pretty frantic so I had to go over and calm him down. The next day at work he said he was in the Sgt. Majors  office already discussing what would happen to him. I guess his Sgt. Maj. is a pretty decent guy and wants to keep the situation quiet and says he respects my buddy’s right to sexual preference but has his hands tied in how he can handle the situation. Since the news got out to his entire squadron, theres no way to hide the issue. And because of this, the command has to proceed with an admin separation. 

This guy really had a bright future ahead of him, it’s a shame the bigot who found the “illegal materials-as they are calling them” in his room had to say anything. But that’s the way it is in the Marine Corps, you never know what your going to get. It’s either hot or cold. There are those who who could care less if their buddy was gay, so long as he leaves them out of it, and there are those who come from middle america and think gays are the devil!! My guess is this Marine who squealed was a big homophobe. 

My buddy is really worried he’s going to get shafted and get a bad discharge. Some people floated the idea of pursuing NJP or Court Martial but I dont think it will go that far.—For gay Marines it can be scary sometimes. All it takes is that one person to see or hear something and your career could be over. They dont care how hard you’ve worked, if your name and the word gay are in the same sentence, it’s over!!! The last few days have been stressful for me because of all this hoopla. 

Be Careful who you trust all you Military folks out there!!! 🙂

I started painting again tonight. Trying not to let all this get to me. I even bought a tennis ball machine. I bought a bunch of songs on itunes. Trying to immense myself in things that will keep me busy/distracted. I dont need any issues with my job right now!!!

I will show off some of my paintings this week. It’s therapeutic for me to be creative. *Hopefully you’ll like**